hoping for better days for true love
by tvlaff

I am 16 years old, and i live in a very strict family. Sometimes i think that im the black sheep, believing in my own thoughts and taking risks. I met a guy three years ago. At first it didnt seem like a big deal, we saw each other sometimes and talked sometimes. Then when i was at the end of grade 8, we started to get really close. we started talking constently and told each other that we were realli into each other. Many times over the next two years, we tried to be as one, but something always stood in the way. There was always either another guy or another gurl or obsticles in the way. Always something. Then at the end of grade9, something happened. we fell in love one night and told one another how much we had thought about each other for the last coupe years. we started seeing each other. Although it was beautiful, it was also forbidden. My family would not approve of him, because I was suppose to marry a special kind of guy. Not just anyone. The summer of 2002, he broke my heart, after three months, telling me that he had no feelings for me. Broken hearted i went off searching for another to replace him but no matter how hot of a guy i found and how nice, nothing was the same. 6 months later, a group of friends and me and him went out to drink a little. Me and the guy had had a fight a week ago and i claimed that i hated him, even when i was still crying myself to sleep every night. that night, we got back togehter again. without any planning, it just happened. from that night on, i knew we were meant to be. he apologized for everything he had done before, and addmitted that he had been a fool for doing anything bad to me. and you noe wut? that is the first guy that i actually trully believed.
i am young, i know but i beieve that two people were put on this earth to find one another and all life is is a journey that guides you to the one. me and him went out for 3 months on the sly since i had an older brother and a very strict dad. everything was so beautiful. i shared everything with this guy and i knew in my heart that i would never stop loving him. he became a part of me through mind and body. he was everything i could want in a guy. although my mother knew, she told me to be very careful. about 3 days ago, my brother picked me up from school, he told me he found out about us. he got so mad and forced me to break it off. he told my whole family and i became labelled as a traitor, even in the words of my mother. i told him what had happened, but i knew he needed me more than anything, especially at this stage that he was going through.
i told my family that it was over, but i am still with justin. it does not feel like we are apart, because i know that we will always have each other. i love this guy to pieces. every night and every day, through my tears, i pray to God that this love will make it through, because i trully trully believe that this guy is meant to be with me.

Do I have another chance?
by Ashley

I met this guy about 3 years ago. He was shy, and I had never really heard him talk but he lived down the street from me. I would always watch him walk home. At first I thought he was really cute but then we started talking one day, and I enjoyed our conversations. I started liking him and I guess he then started liking me as well. We eventually started going out, and I really liked him a lot. After about the second month I got drunk and cheated on him. He forgave me but I still felt awful. We went out for another 2 months and I cheated on him again. He found out and confronted me, and I admitted it. That was one of the worst days of my life. I wanted to crawl under my bed and die. I couldn't believe that I had this great guy and I treated him the way that I did. we broke up and went out about 4 times during our 6 month long relationship. Finally we broke up in late septemeber. over about a year and a half I had thought about him several times and wished I was back with him. since that year and a half has passed I realized that I was still in love with him. I went to his house a last march and talked to him for a few hours, i really had a great time just talking to him. A couple days later we went and got ice cream like we used to when we were going out, and I have this thing where I wouldn't let him pay for anything, and I didn't let him pay again even though he offered several times. I don't know I guess I feel guilty taking other people's money. Anyway, a few weeks passed and one night we were sitting at this park, and I asked him if he ever thought about us. He responded with my repetition of cheating. He also pointed out that I couldn't be trusted...and that was exactly what I was expecting. I told him I liked him and I woundered if he was interested in thinking about giving it another chance to prove it that I can be trusted. He said he would think about it. More weeks went by and we didn't really talk after that untill about a month ago, and I've tried everything in my power to make it up, and I'm not quitting. Recently, I went over to his house again, and hung out with him for a little bit. He had just gotten home from work (he works almost 40 hrs a week plus school). We were talking and just hanging out and he started to walk me home. We stopped in the middle of this hill by my house and because he was tired he only walked me halfway. We stood there at about 8:45 at night and I gave him a hug saying that I'll see him later. We looked at each other and we both leaned in and kissed. It was one of the most happiest days of my life. I told him I had to go but he just said...wait a litle bit longer. I gave him another hug and told him goodnight. As I finshed walking home I kept thinking about our kiss and how hapy I was that we finally did kiss again. He told me that we could start "seeing each other". I have been waiting for that day for so long...hoping that it would once come along and it finally did. Its been a little more than a week and nothing has really happend but I hope that he will figure out how much I do love him and that I do want to spend the rest of my life with him. I would do anything for him and I wish that if he read this that it would touch his heart because he's stolen mine and I'm never asking for it back. I just hope he feels the same way about me as I do about him.

A Forbidden Love
by Anonymous

My story begins a few summers ago. Something was in the air that day. Birds were chirping and everything was alive. I had been depressed for about a year before that day.

I was walking along the beach at the campground when my life would change forever. From a distance I saw a handsome young man admiring me from afar. Are eyes met and it was like nothing I had ever felt before. We began to walk closer together like something out of a movie. I felt on top of the world, my eyes were sparkling and my stomach fluttering, as we walked closer and closer to each other.

When we were together he got on his knee and said the most romantic things he stood up and spoke my fluent language, French. At that point I knew he had my heart. We began to talk and it lasted till 2:00am that next morning. Turns out he lives about 10 minutes from where I was currently living.

After I returned home we started seeing more of each other. He was beginning to get serious. I fought the depression and soon I was glowing with life and he was the world to me. My anything and everything. We had been going out for about 6 months when he met my
mother.

My mother disapproved of him because of his flaw and soon banned me from seeing him. For a while we went out against her will and had 4 more months of endless happiness. I had met someone who I loved and would spend the rest of my life with him.

On our 1-year anniversary we went out to a fancy French Restaurant as were leaving a man came out of the shadows with a gun. He took my purse and Jason's wallet. Someone saw this crime-taking place and screamed at the man to stop. Jason threw himself in front of me and the gun went off. The robber ran off into the night and left Jason to die.

I held him for the longest time as he bled to his death. Right before he died he told me that we would be together again. He said he loved me and that I would always be in his heart. As he drew his last breath my heart was torn in half. He lay there dead in my arm staring at me with his crystal blue eyes.

Jason Died on April 20, 1996. But he will always be in my heart. Whenever the wind blows I can still here him whispering sweet nothings in my ear.

My dream of a day with my beautiful valentine
by Zaneta

I opened my eyes and its Thursday morning, I jumped in the shower and at that moment I just realised that tomorrow is Valentines Day and I almost forgot to get my love one something special , should I get him something to wear or maybe a perfume but its too late for that it would never get there in time since he lives so far away.

Then something like a bell rang in my head and I thought of something, a courier company. I m gonna send Ilija a special note so he gets it today. As I arranged the courier to be here in half an hour I set down on the table and I wrote him my special note.
Dear Ilia my love my Valentine hope this note finds u well, my only true love of my life I love you so much please meet me if you can Tomorrow at Jordans restaurant at Darling Houbour time is 7.30pm. Hope you can make it. Love for ever Zaneta 3+2=ILU.
I got dressed I went to work I had to book the restaurant for us and everything was set up except for my shopping, but all I could think of was having him in my arms that mean so much to me and my eyes that has not seen him for over a month. The day was dragging it seam such a long day- finely it was time to go home.

I spent the whole evening thinking about tomorrow night and not knowing if he would make it to be there- that was killing me coz Ive missed him so much.. Sleepless night has passed it was time to go get up do some shopping it was time to find the perfect dress for a perfect man and a perfect evening.

I just found the most beautiful dress it is spectacular Ilija will be amazed when he sees me I got to ring my friend see if she is can do my hair I want to look like a princes something he can not forget. Everything was going so great but the though of him not being not being able to come was killing me I didnt want to be a princes alone in a palace.

My friend came over and she did my hair and make up and I put my dress and shoes I was truly amazed the way I looked.
My dress was so beautiful sky blue colour was very tight and long it had two splits on the side so my legs are showing and strapless so u could see my part of my breasts it was in one word very sexy < real turn on>. I was a true princess coz thats what I am to Ilija with or with out the dress and he is my Prince for Life.

The time was close I arrived at Jordans at 7.15 I was warried and stress didnt know of the out come my heart was ticking like a clock waiting for my Prince to come. As I was deep in thoughts I looked up and my eyes pointed the door and I could not believe my eyes I keep staring I dint blink I think in that moment my heart stoped as he was entering the door. I smiled but from my eyes tears were rolling down thats tears of happiness tears of joy. He was so beautiful so charming so elegant he is everything to me he is my Angel.

He was wearing a very elegant black suit and in his hand he was holding a big bunch of red roses as he walked towards my table I looked in his eyes a they were fool of smiles and his face was like an angel something I cant forget.
As he came up to me he gave me the bunch of red roses and he said to me take this rose as a symbol of my love for you he kissed my hand and he kissed my lips. I could not wait, I had to put my arms around him, holding him so close meant everything so right so perfect I just could not let him go.

He said to me God I love you so much Zaneta you are a real princes so beautiful and I would love to love you for the rest of my life Be my princes for life so I can tressure you for the rest of my life.As I heard those words tears were rolling on my face, as I looked at him I said Ilija I love and will love you for the rest of my life and I would love to love you and tressure you for the rest of the days to come Be my Prince, Happy Valentines Day my love.
We hugged and kissed shared our tears together.

The dinner was great we had a champagne but we didnt take our eyes of each other was great, Zaneta would like to dance with me?; he whispered gently I would love too my darling, the song that was on it was just perfect it was just a beginning of a new life.
I sang along with the music I sang softly as I looked in his eyes: From this moment life has began from this moment you are the one, right beside you thats where I belong from this moment.
I give my hand to you before my heart, I cant wait to be yours I cant wait for our life to start.
We are dancing holding each other like never before, there are people we dont see them they are talking we dont hear them. This night its been everything that we ever dream off.
It was time to go as we took a cab on the way to the hotel he asked me where are we going I said sweetheart dont ask just kiss me and youll see. I love you Ilija I love you too srcka he whispered to me -we kissed softly all the way till we got at the hotel.
Zaneta oh I cant believe this!! Yes srcka Ana Harbour Grand Hotel Ilija just for you and me just for us.

As we were to open the door I said Ilija close your angel and go in now, the room was decorated with candles everywhere red roses on the side of the table and leaves of red rose all over the bed and one pillow heart that said I LOVE YOU and red rose on top of the pillow with a little note that said Make love to me tonight I love you. Two glasses and bottle of champagne where at our table and plate of strawberry and whip cream just perfect every thing that I wanted was there.
As he opened his eyes he couldnt belive his eyes I could see the smile and excitement on his face, he turned around he picked me up and kissed me over and over and over again. The only words I could hear was I love you, I love you.

Tasting his lips there is nothing more delicious and sweet yummmmmy I cant get enough of it. As I was kissing him and feeling his tongue touching mine and me sucking it and a gentle bite onto his lips I think he really like it as much as I did.

My hands running through his black silky hair and all over his angel face feeling his smooth skin. I stoped kissing his lips for a minute I love to kiss his ear and lick it all over and gentle love bites thats so sweet. This was turning him on and I love every
bit of it.
Give me your hand Ilija and lie on the bed with me.We hugged and kissed laughed it was like a life in Paradise. I could not think of anything else but being the with and making love to him.

I kept kissing his sweet lips then I kissed his chicks and I kissed his ears and licked them a bit all over and gentle turn on bite I can feel he was getting hard . I kept kissing him down his lovely neck down his chest a licked his chest I sucked his nipple and I can see he was getting aroused by the touch of my tongue. I kept licking all the way down to his lovely tool penis and he was so hard I could not wait to hold it in my hands feel his warmth.
I started stroking it with my hand up and down gently then a bit faster, now I think I love to taste his hard and lovely tool.

My lips went right on it licking his knob going around in circles with my tongue, have to have it all I started to suck on it a had it all in my mouth - gentle sucking from top to bottom slower then a bit faster every inch of it >>>I love the look on his face as he was enjoying every second and so was I .. I was so horny as I could not wait to have his juices and have him inside me. Sucking his cock was so sweet and so tasty as nothing Ive tasted before. I started to enjoy so much my sweet desert I sucked even faster up and down all the way in I could hear him moan he was getting close to climax.

I could hear him calling my name and I had this warm juices in my mouth that are so sweet I swallowed it all every drop of it, and my sweetheart loved every bit of it.
Now it was time to lie down holding each other and it was such a pleasure seeing Ilija so happy like never before he is so beautiful and he is mine for ever.
I love you Ilija I love you so much.

It was time to have something sweet guess what? the strawberry yummy >>>>and the whip cream oh yeah I can think of lots of ways to use this whip cream.. I m sure u know what I mean.
I pored champagne for us and I took one strawberry and I put I bit of whip cream I and Ive put in my mouth and ask my valentine to come and take of my lips and you know how good that feels.
And what happened next you can only imagine Ill give you a little clue ok we made love to each other all night long.

if only i could tell you what i want....!!!
by la fleur

Befor i start telling you my story, do you believe that Love cuts deep inside our souls and hearts ? I DO...!!!
anyway...my story begins long time agao....i was going in a journey with our church....that's when i first talked to him...not saw him....as we've met when we were still young...
He's all you'll every wish for a man.....He's handsome, cute , attractive,strong ,kind , & nice man.........he was everything that i've ever hoped in my right guy.
I spend the whole journey looking to him secretly.....and if he turned his head towards my direction....i quickly turns mine.....
then by luck he got my number and so do i.....and that made me so happy..
Years went by and everyday our friendship goes high....
we became close friends but......that's all, or i'd rather say that's how he feels about me....while every secound i fall deeply in love with him more than ever.....
can you immagine that you had to be the close friend to your lover....?
Can you believe that i had to hear his stories about girls while jealousy cuts my heart...?
He's always expressing his feelings about love...
he told me once that if he found one girl that truely loves him....he'll marry her at once, but first she must tell him so.....that day i wanted to tell him that :

I gurantee that he don't love me at all but i'm sure that my love would be enough for all...!
I know that you might be afraid of my love to be untrue.....but i'm sure that it's real as long as you are.....!
And also i want you to know that the only thing that i'll ever regret of...is not to tell you what i really want.....which is YOU....!!

But you know what ? i couldn't even say one word....my tongue just stuck into my mouse and i was speachless for about 10 min.

i really don't know what to do?? i wish that i can conffess my love to him....but i'm just so shy and also.....afraid for what will happen if he don't even like me.....??????????

he's now isn't in the same city....and i can't prevent myself of calling him.....but i'm not sure of his reaction.....

he always says that he wanna see me but he never ask me out.....???

it's driveing me crazy....i'm listenning to his type of music every day, i'm readding his words to me in my diaries every night...and i'm almost sure that i won't be able to forget him for the rest of my life.....!!!

that's the story of my secret....deep....love...!!!

On the other side of the Globe, 10,000 mils apart
by Don Buddhi Wickramanayake

Hi , my name is Don (Don Buddhi ) in fact ,live in Alameda, CA, USA.
Originally I'm from Sri Lanka , the little island below India. Her name is Thilakshi , shes 2 years younger to me. I first met her 7 years ago , Her dad was a friend of my dad... so it was during a visit we 1st saw each other . But on that day we didn't even talk to each other she was 13 , I was 15 have never seen each other before. The second time we met was in 2001 after 7 years. I was out of High school she was on her way to the University.

She had a crush during that time , for some reason they have broken up ,the guy have neglected her and kicked her butt off..... He had fallen with her best friend!!!!.
She came to me and cried a lot , We were good friends and I had a serious felling of love towards her at that time. But I was nervous to ask her....cause she had a crush. So cause I loved her so much , I offered my help I volunteered to call the guy and to ask him the reason to leave her behind..I was so nervous , anyway cause I loved her so much I called him, .he refused to talk about her and he continued to hang on to her friend.

After some time, Thilakshi and I got even friendly and I was used to go shopping and became her travel mate. We talked about lot of stuff, family , life, jokes.
We had a nice time together. But I never phoned her or she didnt either.
One day she wanted me to accompany her for a Latin American dancing class and I couldnt cause I had been invited to conduct a lecture on Aeronautics for my High school guys. I was the Instructor of the Aeronautical society of my High school for 2 years.

Cause of that I couldnt go with her, she got mad about me, I apologized and after 2 days she forgave me. From the next day I had to become her dancing partner ,and we continued on. After 2 weeks, I couldnt hold it any more, so I asked her. Actually we were so friendly, we didnt have anything to hide from each other we were in love as friends So actually I proposed her for marriage. And after 2 days She gave me the green light..
Man I was so happy I couldnt eat or drink anything I was over dozed with Oxytocin & endorphins the Love Hormones .After that day we went for few movies, had lunch together , I have stayed couple of nights at her place, (Not with her) , We have a good understanding between both of our parents , therefore we are pretty lucky.

In the Spring of 2002 I got accepted to the Sierra Academy of Aeronautics and I had to leave her and go to USA , and now each week end we join through Yahoo Chat and talk for hours , some days we Virtually go out to the beach or to a mountain top or to a romantic place and enjoy , This is totally virtual and imaginary, not real.
I take her hand and walk with her or she cuddles up with me and keeps her head on my chest and kisses me, or stares at my eyesetc.
Its amazing how it feels , when you Virtually love each other. I simply cant believe we are 10,000 miles apart, on the far ends of the globe
We are planning to get married in 2008 , sometimes may be before that.who knows what. I love her so much.shes my only dream

always trust friends when they wana hook you up
by Tonia

I was in a three year relationship we weren't doing all that well so I decided to call it off and later on that week my friend asked me if I wanted to go bowling with her and her husband I said sure well friday comes and she siad oh greg (her husband) is bringing a friend from work. I was so mad I said Oksana (my bestfriend) you are not setting me up with some one I wana be single i've been in serious relationships since I was 15 and i'm 21 so I think I needed some time to me. but I finally said fine what does he look like and she said he looks like GOD! I can't think of his name that really cut doctor from ER. well anyways I went out bowling with them he looked nothing like what she had explained. right when he got in the car I wispered to Oksana he is not my type at all I siad he is ugly. but I was so wrong he is the sweetest guy and so nice I've never dated some one as nice as him thats why I said he is not my type cause he is someone I would say is to good for me. but now were together and have been for the last year he moved in with me pretty much since day one and took me on a trip to florida. I know he is the one I wana bee with for the rest of my life. I love him SOOOOOOO Much.

So always TRUST your friends!!!

Mad Love
by Sam Escueta

Have you ever considered the idea that you just want to fall in love? The moment is there, the feeling is right and you are just about to give in when you stop on your tracks and realized that nobody is there to catch you for that someone is catching someone else fall in his arms... This is my story. Learning love the hard way is the same thing that I never thought would happen to me. DC and I have been classmates way back in our gradeschool days...we were like both 13. He told he likes me a lot and that he cares about me but I pushed him away thinking that I was only 13 and would find another guy. I thought he was cute and a reallly nice guy. matter of fact, many girls were like having this crushes on him. DC is a special guy and he chose me. but I have this stupid attitude of just wanting to have the chase with the guy...liking him as long as i'm not aware that he likes me too. That's what happened with DC.
My family moved after my dad had his promotion that's why I was forced to changed school. DC made efforts to see in my new school, ask me out and called me on the phone. But I constantly ignored him. He was such a nice guy and i don't how dumb I can be.
I haven't thought him until I got these dreams of him and me together....happy together. That's when I became intruiged about him. I was a freshman in college when I got his number from a friend and called him up. He was friendly and he agreed to meet. We talked about everything, He mentioned his girlfriend whome he has been going steady for almost 2 years. The day we met was the only day I remembered having real conversation with him in 5 years time. He admitted to me that his girlfriend was the girl he dated after I pushed him away. We kissed and he hugged me tight. That night he called me up. I told him it was fun and we should do it again. He said these words to me "...i can't see you again. i thought i was strong and would be in love with you. i didn't fall for you this time because this time around i'm so sure that i never stopped loving you Sam..."
I told him that I love him but he told me that he can't survive another heartache from me. I told him I love him. I think that minute we were both ready to give another try but I can't... knowing that there is this girl who is also with him... she didn't do anything to hurt me. We just happened to be in love with the same great guy. I date but i'm not yet ready to have that commitment to someone knowing deep inside me i still love DC. Maybe in time. This is what i did for my true love or in this case didn't do for my true love. Madness and forever, i'll never share with the man that i love because i failed to tell him from the start...Mad Love...Sad Love...