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Dreams that money just can't buy
You give away no try and now you're gone, is it forever?
Love, for me is not a game
Don't play a trick again, it's over now, is it forever
Don't hurt my heart
Refrain:
Oh I thought you are the girl out of my dreams
I'll be there for you oh baby now it seems
You're the one who quit this love and let me go
Is it over now, I have to know
Girl, oh why you changed your mind
There's a way we'll find, but why, you're gone, is it forever?
Love is looking through my eyes
Don't leave this paradise, it's over now, is it forever?
Don't hurt my heart
I have to know, I have to know
Tension?,...
Today is not a bad day. My ma woke me up at 7:30, and I slept just 4 or 5 hrs last night!!!!! and I am sooooo exhausted!!!! And I donot have time to sleep cuz tomorrow is a big day!!! My uncle's engagement ceremony and I don't know why all specially women in my family are so nervous! :)) It is not their engagement but their brother or son and God!!! U know it is sth usual in women! And shame on me! I don't lose weight at all!!:(( I don't know how I can wear that blue dress which shows all my fucking fats!! Never mind, I kill my self and It did not happen so why should I bother myself? U know, it is a terrible culture among persians and that is GOSSIP! I hate gossiping and unfortunetly, it never invade from persian culture!!!! And God knows that I don't give a shit to others! I don't have that much money to buy much expensive cloth or shoes! I have not pay my bills and I am in trouble cuz I may not work anymore and that sucks! OOOooooooooo worst! I forgot that my cellphone bill will be higher than normal cuz I just went over my minutes!
Nevermind, today's celebrity is Goerge michael (what a pity he is gay:)))
And here is his biography and pics:
 
GEORGE MICHAEL BIOGRAPHY
 After nearly 20 years in the music business George Michael can already look back on more than 67 million record sales worldwide. In that time, he's notched up six US No.1 singles from his debut album, eleven British No.1 singles and six No.1 albums. The new single, "Shoot the dog", is due to be released on Polydor in August 2002 and once more, sounds like the kind of track thatll have to get used to the rarified air, up there at the top of the pop pile.
Born Georgios (Yorgos) Kyriacos Panayiotou, on the 25 June 1963, in Finchley, London, England. Michael first served his pop apprenticeship in the million-selling duo Wham!, the most commercially successful, teen-orientated band of the 80s. His solo career was foreshadowed in 1984's UK chart-topper "Careless Whisper", a song about a promiscuous two-timer with the oddly attractive line: "Guilty feet have got no rhythm". By the time Wham! split in 1986, Michael was left with the unenviable task of reinventing himself as a solo artist.
Breaking the Wham! icon was the great challenge of Michael's solo career, and his finest and most decisive move was to take a sabbatical before recording an album, to allow time to put his old image to rest. In the meantime, he cut 1986"s UK chart-topper "A Different Corner", a song stylistically similar to "Careless Whisper" and clearly designed to show off his talent as a serious singer-songwriter.
 Enlivening his alternate image as a blue-eyed soul singer, he teamed up with Aretha Franklin the same year for the uplifting "I Knew You Were Waiting (For Me)", a transatlantic chart-topper. Michael's re-emergence came in 1988, resplendent in leather and shades and his customary designer stubble. A pilot single, "I Want Your Sex" was banned by daytime radio stations and broke his string of number 1s in the UK. The transatlantic chart-topper Faith followed, and was not only well-received but sold in excess of 10 million copies. The album spawned four US number 1 singles, with the title track, "Father Figure", "One More Try" and "Monkey" all reaching the top. Equally adept at soul workouts and ballads, and regarded by some as one of the best new pop songwriters of his era, Michael was set for a long run.
In 1990, he released his second album, Listen Without Prejudice, Vol. 1, a varied work which predictably sold millions and topped the UK album chart. The first single from the album, "Praying For Time" reached number 1 in the USA. Still dissatisfied with his media image, Michael announced that he would cease conducting interviews in future and concentrate on pursuing his career as a serious songwriter and musician.
A duet with Elton John on "Don't Let The Sun Go Down On Me" revived his UK chart fortunes, reaching number 1 in December 1991, and also topping the US charts. In 1992, the Sunday Times announced his arrival as one of the most financially successful men in the UK.
 Although Michael, with some help from Queen and Lisa Stansfield, topped the UK charts with the Five Live EP in summer 1993, a court clash with his record label Sony dominated his activities in the following two years. The case, which was eventually estimated to have cost him $7 million, saw Michael arguing that his contract rendered him a "pop slave" and demanding to be released from it. Mr Justice Jonathan Parker ruled in Sony's favour and Michael stated he would appeal, and also insisted that he would never again record for the label. In July 1995, it looked likely that Michael had managed to free himself from Sony - but only at the cost of $40 million. The buy-out was financed by David Geffen's new media empire, DreamWorks, and Virgin Records, who were also reputed to have paid him an advance of £30 million for two albums. The first was Older, one of the decade's slickest productions. A huge success, the album yielded two UK chart-toppers, "Jesus To A Child" and "Fastlove". Michael announced the formation of his own record label Aegean Records, in February 1997.
In April 7 1998, he was arrested for "lewd behaviour" in Beverly Hills, California and was sentenced to perform community service. He bounced back with an excellent single, "Outside", which entered the UK charts at number 2 in October 1998. The Ladies & Gentlemen compilation was a bestseller, topping the UK chart for 8 weeks.
His duet with Mary J. Blige on a cover version of Stevie Wonder's "As" broke into the UK Top 5 in March 1999. At the end of the year Michael released "Songs From The Last Century".
The singer returned to the charts in March 2002 with the one-off single "Freeek!", which was accompanied by a slinky yet controversial £1 million video.
And here is his lyric:
I feel so unsure,
As I take your hand and lead you to the dance floor.
As the music dies...
Something in your eyes,
Calls to mind a silver screen,
And all those sad goodbyes.
CHORUS
I'm never gonna dance again,
Guilty feet have got no rhythm.
Though it's easy to pretend,
I know you're not a fool.
I should have no better than to cheat a friend,
And waste the chance that I'd been given.
So I'm never gonna dance again,
The way I danced with you.
CHORUS
Time can never mend,
The careless whispers of a good friend.
To the heart and mind,
If your answer's kind...
There's no comfort in the truth,
Pain is all you'll find.
REPEAT CHORUS
What am I without your love?
Tonite the music seems so loud,
I wish that we could lose the crowd.
Maybe it's better this way,
We'd hurt each other with the things we want to say.
We could have been so good together,
We could have made this last forever...
But now, who's gonna dance with me?
Please stay.
(Alternatively):
And now it's never gonna be
That way...
REPEAT CHORUS
Now that you're gone...
Now that you're gone...
Now that you're gone...
Was what I did so wrong?
So wrong that you had to leave me alone?
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British-born singer/songwriter George Michael began his career as a teenybopper idol in the seminal '80s pop duo Wham and later transitioned into one of the most successful solo artists of the late '80s and '90s.
Michael was born Georgios Kyriacos Panayiotou on June 25, 1963. He grew up in the suburbs of London, the son of a Greek father and an English mother. He and schoolmate Andrew Ridgeley formed Wham in 1982 after playing in various bands together. The duo became an instant success when their debut album, Fantastic, hit No. 1 on the U.K. charts. Throughout their four-year partnership in Wham, Michael and Ridgeley scored numerous hits on both sides of the Atlantic, including their 1984 breakthrough "Wake Me Up Before You Go Go," "Careless Whisper," "Everything She Wants," "Freedom" and "I'm Your Man."
In 1986, after three albums, Michael left Wham for a solo career. His solo debut, Faith, released the following year on Columbia Records, catapulted Michael into the upper echelons of rock stardom. The controversial video to the album's first single, "I Want Your Sex," introduced Michael's sexy new leather-clad image -- less bubblegum, more razor stubble. Faith went on to sell more than eight million copies off the strength of four No. 1 singles, "Faith," "Father Figure," "One More Try" and "Monkey." When the dust settled, Michael walked away with the 1988 Grammy Award for Album of the Year.
Though not as commercially successful as Faith, Michael's 1990 follow-up, Listen Without Prejudice, Vol. 1, sold more than a million copies and peaked at No. 2 on the album charts. The album produced two hits, "Praying For Time" and the MTV favorite, "Freedom 90." In 1991 Michael hit No. 1 again with a duet version of Elton John's "Don't Let the Sun Go Down on Me," recorded live with John.
A year after the release of Listen Without Prejudice, Michael sued Sony Music, the new owners of his label, Columbia, charging that Sony was not promoting his music adequately. Michael lost the case after a bitter court battle and ended up buying his way out of the $12-million Sony contract.
A little lighter in the pockets, Michael signed with the then-fledgling DreamWorks Records to release his third album, 1996's Older (which later appeared in repackaged form in 1998 as Older & Upper.
In 1998 Michael became the center of media attention when he faced charges of lewd conduct after being arrested by Beverly Hills police in a public restroom. Beleaguered by questions concerning his sexuality, a few days after his arrest Michael publicly announced on CNN that he was, in fact, a homosexual.
A double-CD greatest hits compilation, Ladies & Gentlemen: The Best of George Michael , was released in late 1998. |
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| Ladies and Gentlemen: The Best of George Michael |
1998 |
| Yvette Michele |
1997 |
| Older |
1996 |
| Listen Without Prejudice, Vol. 1 |
1990 |
| Faith |
1987 |
| Star People '97 |
1997 |
| Killer/Papa Was A Rolling Stone |
1993 |
| Too Funky |
1992 |
| Don't Let the Sun Go Down on Me |
1991 |
| Freedom |
1990 |
| One More Try |
1989 |
| I Want Your Sex/Hard Day |
1987 |
| Monkey |
1987 |
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Another day,...
Today, I am studying very very hard and I can not write much. But, I want to introduce to a new movie in which JOHNY DEP, one of my favorites palys in it and it is open in the middle of July I think.
And here is his biography:
Johnny Depp
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June 9, 1963
Owensboro, Kentucky |
Did You Know?
- When Johnny was a child, he would have nightmares about clowns and to this day is afraid of the colorful creatures.
- Johnny grew up in Florida.
- His mother gave him his first guitar when he was 12. Five years later, he started a band, "The Kidz of Florida." The band opened for popular bands like The Talking Heads and The Pretenders.
- Johnny quit school his junior year. He lived in a car, worked as a construction worker during the day and played gigs with The Kidz at night.
- His former wife introduced him to Nicolas Cage, who liked his scruffy looks and took him to see his agent. Depp landed a small part in "Nightmare On Elm Street."
- He was engaged to Winono Ryder in the early 1990's, so after they ended the engagement Depp had his tattoo that once read "Winona Forever" laser-altered to read "Wino Forever."
- Johnny owns one of the hottest clubs in Hollywood, The Viper Room.
- Johnny has a daughter with longtime companion Vanessa Paradis. "Anything I've done up till 27 May 1999 was kind of an illusion, existing without living. My daughter, the birth of my daughter, gave me life."
- He hasn't given up his love for rock music. Johnny plays in a band called "P."
- Johnny was once engaged to Sherilyn Fenn and Jennifer Grey too.
Actor Credits
- Once Upon A Time In Mexico (2003)
- The Pirates Of The Caribbean (2003)
- Lost In La Mancha (2003)
- Deep Cover (2002)
- From Hell (2001)
- The Man Who Cried (2001)
- Blow (2001)
- Before Night Falls (2000)
- Chocolat (2000)
- The Ninth Gate (2000)
- The Astronaut's Wife (1999)
- Sleepy Hollow (1999)
- Fear And Loathing In Las Vegas (1998)
- Donnie Brasco (1997)
- The Brave (1997)
- Nick Of Time (1995)
- Dead Man (1995)
- Don Juan DeMarco (1995)
- Ed Wood (1994)
- What's Eating Gilbert Grape (1993)
- Benny & Joon (1993)
- Arizona Dream (1992)
- Freddy's Dead: The Final Nightmare (1991)
- Cry-Baby (1990)
- Edward Scissorhands (1990)
- Platoon (1986)
- Private Resort (1985)
- A Nightmare On Elm Street (1984)
Director Credits
- The Brave (1997)
And a lyric of a day:
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BIOGRAPHY EUROPE |
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 Everything is dated back to 1978 when the bass player Peter Olsson set up, together with John Norum on guitar and Tony Reno on drums, the band Force. Very soon these three guys find the singer: Joey Tempest leaves his band Roxanne and joins theme when he was only 14, proving himself to be an admirable song writer. Its 1981 when Joey is obliged to play the bass too because Peter is leaving the band: John Leven comes in , even if he was demanded to play with Yngwie Malmsteen; the following year was going to be the right one: Rock SM, a Swedish rock championship, was organized for the first time to help local bands to be heard. About 4000 demotapes reached the organizer Thomas Erdtman (later Europe manager!); luckily, Joeys girlfriend tried to persuade guys to record their songs: four songs out of five will be found on the first album.
 Right then, not happy with the outcome, they put the record aside and forget about the competition. Far-sighted, the demo is sent by the wise girl, something that allows Force to take part into and even to be the winner out of thousands bands. Force becomes Euorpe and persuade the stubborn Erdtman who were looking for a pop band like the Gyllen Tider, which were very popular at that time.
 Joey won the price for the best singer, John the one for best guitarist; above all, the main price was the chance to record an album, even if with a small record company and being a low-budget record. In spite of, Europe sells good and becomes very popular thanks to the high quality of the songs in it: Europe face the first Swedish tour. Fortune seems unbounded: a Japanese reporter buy this record by pure chance in a import record shop in London and he likes it very much: comes back to Tokio and plays it for a record company: the album is released in Japan. Seven doors hotel is a real hit in the Top Ten. Wings of tomorrow, the second album, is published in 1984: it sells very well and got remarkable reviews.
 Joey plays keyboard on the record and on tour; but to get the right feeling on tour and have the singer Joey in the front part of the scene they decided to get another keyboard player. Mic Michaeli from Avalon, a band born in Upplands Väsby, join those guys; very soon, also the drums player Tony is replaced by Ian Haugland: finally takes shape the band destined to be famous all over the world.A new tour starts and, at the same time, they are acting in the Swedish movie "On the loose" while Joey writes the soundtrack: On the loose, Rock the night and Broken dreams are the most known songs. Some barring accidents, then the third album The final countdown is released on may 1986: the success might not be bigger, the critics better , it sells about 6-7 million. The 3rd of September 1986 the tour begins in Japan whereas the rest of the world appreciate Europe for the first time .
 A unpleasant circumstance creates some problems: John Norum decides to leave the band, tired of the growing pressure, to dedicate himself to solo projects. His musical tastes were a bit different, more hard and not so good for the style of the band; John liked Scorpions and Dokken, the group liked Toto and Journey. The only guitarist they could think about was Kee Marcello, member of the glamrock band Easy Action (the offer didnt seem to excite him at all).So, the last show made by John was on the 31th of October 1987 in Amsterdam; Kee soon becomes a fundamental segment, by being one of the best Swedish guitar player good on keyboard too, qualified as a producer, composer, song writer and singer at last: he joins the four guys in Dortmund (Germany) in front of 16 000 people and 50 millions saw them on the television. The first world tour begins in March.The final countdown climbs the lists all over Europe, and the single turns out number one in 26 countries: on January 1987 only America is left to conquer.
 It wont resist for long: touring in spring is a chance to get tremendous appreciation (they played in 23 towns and traveled 14 565 kilometers) with The final countdown best placed on Billboard at number 8; you can also hear Europe songs in big events such as the ending ceremony of the Olympic games in 1988. The entire world is conquered: Japan, Europe, America, Canada, The Soviet Union, Australia, South America and South Africa; and because of the high taxation in Sweden Europe moved to Nassau, Bahamas and then to Turks and Caicos, an island in West India. At the beginning of New Year the band take part to one of the main musical event in the world, Rock in Rio, while theyre starting to work on the next studio album.
 The first single Superstitious is released in July when the five guys are going on tour in America with Def Leppard: they got great reviews to support their adventure. The promotion of the album Out of this world is initiated, worthy heir (good critics and many hit on the lists) of The final countdown: some problems connected to wrong choices made by their manager dont allows it to be a big success. Their new tour begins in November: the first show is made in Bombay, India, in front of 60 000 people, to go on with the next one in front of the same 60 000 people at the Milton Keynes show with Bon Jovi, Skid Row and Vixen. The band is not happy with what their producer decides, to far from what they really want; new stuff is produced all the same, writing for the first time all together (not only Joey, to whom is due most of the success) and during their restless travels: they have to argue with the record company asking the band to write more soft things, despite of what they had already done (for instance Yesterdays news and Break free, played only live and released later).
 A new manager arrives, hes Herbie Herbert and the producer is Beau Hill : in 1991 Prisoners in paradise witnesses this strained state of things. New Years Eve show celebrated at the Tokio Dome together with Metallica as the main band opns the last tour ... even if this show is called The final countdown! Theres something unusual: three guitar players on stage; Joey is playing often, Mic just when he hasnt to do with keyboard or Hammond .Then the decision to take a break, a break that seems lasted too long now since theyve been playing together no more for five years . Everyone has got solo projects. In 1993 the album Europe 1982-1992 is published as the last one due to the record company Sony, a chance to remember 17 songs of Europe. What is going to happen to these five Swedish guys? Everything is possible, "...nothing is constant, except changes"(JOEY).
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The Final Countdown
We're leaving together,
But still it's farewell
And maybe we'll come back,
To earth, who can tell?
I guess there is no one to blame
We're leaving ground
Will things ever be the same again?
It's the final countdown...
We're heading for Venus and still we stand tall
Cause maybe they've seen us and welcome us all
With so many light years to go and things to be found
I'm sure that we'll all miss her so.
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Today, I changed the whole things. Please visit the first page cuz I did write some new stuff there. I just did it cuz I think I should change and I need a change. I am kinda angry today!!! How come everyone is out and I have to sit home, watch movies, and study!!!! Holly shit! It is ok cuz I knew that I had to study to get an A. It is ok to be alone sometimes, but honestly it is so dark and I am afraid of being alone by myself!!! And there is not any B,...
It is ok stupid! If I study hard, hopefully I can get an A this time and thanks alot Mr. Fine! I never learn this piece of shit as well as I do in his class and God please I kinda sacrfice my leisure time in order to ...
And my bros r going to see KOLAH GHERMEZI finally, and as usual they don't take me!!! It hurts cuz it is all my probs!!! I shoulda find a full time job in summer instead of studying and I regret!!!
If I could stop this time, I would compensate my past... Hey, girl, u can start from now!!! Why not?
Hey u dear, I am not crazy I sear there r two different invisible people r sitting behind my shoulders and whispering those words in my ears and there is always a battle between these two. And I am the one who has to chose the hopeful one instead, but honestly sometimes I just can not.
Did I tell u about the ...?
I think I did. Now for changing a subject, I want to introduce Cher who is one of my favorites:
Artist(Band):Cher
BORN: May 20, 1946, El Centro, CA
As I look upon Cherylin Sarkisian LaPiere, I see a woman who has led a spectacular life and behind her celebrity status and flawless complexion lies a woman who has experienced a rather eventful past. Better known as Cher, her success in music, movies, television, and on stage has brought her nearly four decades of world recognition. In a career defined as much by dramatic missteps as spectacular recoveries, the chief constant is her seemingly limitless determination.
Born in El Centro, California in 1946, Cher was a poor, fatherless child whose eight times-married Mother struggled by on occasional singing gigs and brief movie roles. To Cher this was life and she delighted in watching her mother on stage and living a peaceful life in her family apartment. At sixteen Cher's dyslexia proved too gruelling and she left school and home to take acting lessons in Los Angeles. To Cher this was a new beginning and the start of a whole new life, she didn't expect what was to come. At the age of seventeen, Cher will never forget the time she met a man named Sonny. They met at the renowned Aldo's Coffee Shop, the place where celebrities used to hang out. At that stage Cher was a nobody, unemployed and desperate for work, on the other hand Sonny had established himself as a celebrity and had many previous appearances on Television.
Cher soon became attached to Sonny and she moved in with him. The two lived platonically at first, sharing an apartment but sleeping in twin beds. While Sonny progressed as a star, Cher was kept house bound and it wasn't until Cher's mother discovered the arrangement and tried to separate them, that the pair rebelled and proclaimed their love. Cher claims in her current Biography "The First Time", that Sonny Bono was the ultimate love of her life and that the two remained amicable in personal st ruggles and hardships. Cher said, "What you saw on TV with Sonny and Cher was a good representation of our personal life, always laughing and having fun". Sonny and Cher hit gold with their single, "I've got you babe" and furthered their world-wide success with "The Beat Goes On" and "Baby Don' t Go". It was Sonny and Cher's far-out look, with wide colourful pants, skimpy tops, shaggy hair and fur vests, which attracted fans.
Cher was deemed as a fashion innovator, a role she has continued with, for better or worse, throughout her career. The happy family portrait presented to America and the world was soon breaking down for Cher. She tells how her daughter Chastity, born in 1969 was affected by intense spotlight and that family life was becoming hectic and unstable . On stage Cher was calm, but backstage was turbulent and Cher felt trapped. Cher states in her biography, "The only way I could continue life happily was to split with Sonny and bring our show to a premature end." She continues, "This devastated our fans, as well as CBS executives, but it had to be done, I was simply, unhappy with my life." In the end stardom pulled Cher's marriage down and the media attention on Cher sky rocketed as she dated new men.
Cher now knows that she has made many mistakes in her life. "I was stupid" she said in her biography, "Dumb and stupid!". Cher had agreed to a second season of Sonny and Cher. Sonny Bono rang Cher constantly to set up a reunion and Cher agreed eventually. Although something was different this time, Cher was married and pregnant to, southern rock great Greg Allman. Intense curiosity sparked huge initial ratings for the new Sonny and Cher Comedy hour, but Cher knew that the show wouldn't last as ratings dropped every week. Finally in August 1977, after two seasons the show got the ax for good.
Cher was still unhappy with her life, she felt tired of what she was doing and wanted more out of life. Her marriage to Allman was a mess as his addictions to booze and heroin ruined their short marriage. By 1979, their marriage was over and Cher was an unemployed 33-year old single mother, yearning for the impossible. A shot in serious films. Her damaged TV image and tabloid troubles were so ingrained, no one in Hollywood wanted her. Cher's persistence is evident when she talks about her troubles, "You know, I had to go on, not only for my sake, but for my two children and the well-being of my career." Cher was not over yet; in fact this would be the start of yet another career swap for the almighty star. She was casted in a movie called 'Silkwood' and acted opposite Meryl Streep.
Cher tells, "I will never forget the time Silkwood premiered in New York and as soon as my name was mentioned, the audience just laughed. I felt so bad, but you know, you can't argue with these things, it's just a natural, organic response from the audience." The people who down graded Cher would soon regret their viscous attacks, as Cher was soon faced with an Oscar for her performance in "Silkwood" . By 1987 Cher was in such demand that she found herself in three films at once, "The witches of Eastwick", "Suspect" and "Moonstruck". She became a prime target for the paparazzi and her name was spread over every magazine and newspaper. At 41, after twenty-five years in show biz, Cher was at last on top and with a little help from the surgeon's knife she remained one of the most beautiful stars in Hollywood.
Cher continued to raise eyebrows throughout her career. Who will ever forget Cher's rip roaring video clip in the late 80's? "If I could turn back time" was a huge hit for Cher, dressed in a risque outfit and prancing around on a ship full of young soldiers she made headlines once again. This was the start of a whole new decade for Cher. The nineties. With number one hits flowing from her vein's Cher was a rock-pop genius. While Cher remained a star, her personal life remained stagnant. Her daughter Chastity announced that she was gay and began campaigning for gay rights. Cher tells "My response to Chastity being Gay was very un-Cher like. I didn't know what to do and who to turn to, I was devastated! The funny thing is I knew all along that she was gay, I just didn't want to admit it." Cher's current relationship with her daughter is extremely strong and Cher admits she has learned to except her daughter for who she is.
The news of Sonny's tragic death was one, which sparked much emotion in Cher's life. "I was in London in January 1998 when I heard the dreaded news. Chastity rang me and brought the news of Sonny's death. I dropped everything and fled to Heathrow Airport and the media watched my every move. Even though we had been apart for over 24 years I couldn't ignore the fact that I spent a quarter of my life with this guy." Cher tells of the day that she learnt of Sonny's death as if it were only days ago in her biography. Full of remorse during her reconciliatory eulogy at his funeral, Cher praised the man who had been father, partner, friend, and foe , displaying a side of herself the world had never seen. Though hurt by endless criticism that her eulogy was an attention seeking devise to gain attention, Cher continued to mourn openly, paying tribute to Sonny Bono in a sentimental CBS documentary.
It had been a period of over 5 years that the world had last heard Cher's unique voice in an album. Just as she was written off by many in the criticising world of Hollywood, Cher hit back with a slick new disco album called Believe. This marked yet another upswing in her bumpy career. Although this time Cher had finally found gold. At the age of 53, looking more like a glamorous 20-year-old Cher's new album is the best selling album of her 35-year recording career. By March 99 she was ruling the American Top 40 and holding the number one spot for a consecutive four weeks. She was now the oldest female ever to hit the top spot and owned the longest Billboard chart span between No. 1's (65-99) of any pop recording artist.
"What can I say about Cher's life that hasn't already been said? A chart topping singer, Television star, Academy award winner, a disco diva, rock'n'roller and a fashion icon. Simultaneously down to earth, an index to everything that is hot and current as well as to what is lasting and timeless. She's been written off countless times, but she springs back and conquers a new. Science will probably never be able to tell us who the first person on earth was, but I believe that the last person standing will be Cher." |
And a lyric by her:
No matter how hard I try
You keep pushing me aside
And I cant break trough
Theres no talking to you
Its so sad that youre leaving
It takes time to believe it
But after all said and done
Youre gonna be the lonely one, ooh
Do you believe in love after love?
I can feel something inside me say
I really dont think youre strong enough, no
Do you believe in love after love?
I can feel something inside me say
I really dont think youre strong enough, no
What am I supposed to do
Sit around and wait for you
Well I cant do that
And theres no turning back
I need time to move on
I need love to feel strong
cos Ive had time to think it trough
And maybe Im too good for you, ooh
Do you believe in life after love?
I can feel something inside me say
I really dont think youre strong enough, no
Do you believe in life after love?
I can feel something inside me say
I really dont think youre strong enough, no
But I know that Ill get trough this
cos I know that I am strong
I dont need you anymore, I dont need you anymore
I dont need you anymore, no I dont need you anymore
Do you believe in love after love?
I can feel something inside me say
I really dont think youre strong enough, no
Do you believe in love after love?
I can feel something inside me say
I really dont think youre strong enough, no
Do you believe in life after love?
I can feel something inside me say
I really dont think youre strong enough, no
Do you believe in life after love?
I can feel something inside me say
I really dont think youre strong enough, no |
What a shit day,
After three days, I find at least some minute as a leisure time!!!! I am so exhausted of everything. My Summer is sooooooooo damn busy and I have to sacrifice spending many times shopping and, I did not sleep well last night cuz I had to study that shit (Math) and still I did not do as well as I thought!! The questions were so easy and most, preferably all of them were from the HW! I dont know why I sat behind my chair like a moran??!!! Did some of them and I hope that I get a C. Anyways,
Saturday was my uncles engagement ceremony and it was so cool (JAYE HAME KHALI) and we had lots of fun!!! I cant describe it, but I will put some pictures for u to see how fat and ugly I am!!! Now, when I look at the pictures, I can see that I MUST go on a strict diet!!!!! Cuz I both look ugly and fat!!!! And I should not wear that dress cuz it bothered me sooooooo much!!! U can see if I put it in my site!
Also, I woke up very early in the morning and try studying, but in reality I did not learn anything!!!L
Today, I spend some time with my friend and we decide to go the SMCs pool tomorrow! It would be fun!!! And I am trying to save my cells minutes cuz I have no money to pay for extras.
Lets see what is on movie theaters:
Todays celebrity is Sinbad:
Zeta-Jones as Marina
Pit and Sinbad
Pferffer and Eris
Haysbert and Kale
Fiennes as Prine Proteus
Producer: Mireille Soria
Directors:( attention to the cute one in the left!!:)
Hope I can go to see the movie!!!!
And finally the lyric of a day:
Hold me forever
Whisper the words Ive waited so long to hear
Loves sweet surrender
Steals an embrace and kisses away the tears
Lookin back down the road of love
We can still feel the heartache
Pain and joy of an unrelenting love
Hold us together
Chorus:
Only you
Youve got control
Only you
Youve got the key to my heart
Only you
Youve got control
Need your love, take me forever
Sad empty faces
Faded away when I fell in love with you
True love erases
Fear and the doubt not knowing wed see things through
So in love, unaware of time
In a world of illusion
We fell in love until the end of time
True love, forever
Chorus
Lookin back down the road of love
We can still feel the heartache
Pain and joy of an unrelenting love
Hold us together
Chorus
Hi dude,...
I just came by to say hi. Hey dude! We are getting old friends:) I really start loving u man!!! U r becoming my best friend and thanks alot for listening to me and helping me!! Some people I mean (if they are reading these shit) may think I am crazy, but just for informing u guys I have to say JUST SHUT THE FUCK UP AND GO TO HELL!!!Kidding! But, u know my dear friend, there are many things in people's life which are valuable for them! This site is one of my dear diamond as well.
Today was ssooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo good! At my English class, we were laughing sooooo much! I told u before that there are many persian guys in my class and they are all funny!!!! Sina,Payam,Peyman,Ash, and many others,...
After the class, we stayed outside and chat and laugh alot!!!!
That encouraged me to keep my class and not drop it! And I hope that I can get A's this semester!!!!
How badluck I am!!!! Yesterday, I wrote that my Econ teacher Dr.Keskinel was supposed to be at my work.. remember? If not, read yesterday's diary:)))))
Anyways, at 6:05, Leroy gave me a break and I ran outside to get ride of Mr. Meric:)) I came back at 6:20 and BA KAMALE BADBAKHTI I found out that he was not coming yet!!! However, I started doing my HW with my heart bomping on my chest cuz I was sooooo angry!!! Then, sb says hi very quetly and when I looked up, there was him smiling at me! Then, I ran to the room to check MM CART out for him when he came behind me and said:"... Actually, I don't need a media cart tonight cuz my class is full..." And I shaked my head like a moran and said Ooook! Then, when we were going ou, I remember that my cheeks were burning. He said again :" how is your cousin? and I think who the hell is he asking about?:))) I think it was a stupid question and he asked me cuz we did not have much to talk about!!! However, I still remember he was wearing a yellow/gold shirt and a cream trousers and eyes,.. Wow like a green garden!!! Then, remember what my cousin said:" What a pity that he has lost his hair since he is still too young" Is not that funny?:))
ok then the lyric selection is from BonJovi, enjoy,...
An angel's smile is what you sell
You promise me heaven, then put me through hell
Chains of love got a hold on me
When passion's a prison, you can't break free
You're a loaded gun
There's nowhere to run
No one can save me
The damage is done
Shot through the heart
And you're to blame
You give love a bad name
I play my part and you play your game
You give love a bad name
You give love a bad name
You paint your smile on your lips
Blood red nails on your fingertips
A school boy's dream, you act so shy
Your very first kiss was your first kiss goodbye
You're a loaded gun
There's nowhere to run
No one can save me
The damage is done
Shot through the heart
and you're to blame
You give love a bad name
I play my part and you play your game
You give love a bad name
What a shit day,
I am so tired today and I have lots of things to do!!!!! I have many Math excursuses and many English readings, but fortunately or not, I dont have the English book and I wont buy it until I decide whiter or not keeping this class! Sámi, and Ash r in the class as well and Ash is going to keep the class and I am thinking how crazy he is!!! He is taking Chem. 12 and he is trying to add English as well!!!
The day does not start very well after I lost one of my contact lenses first in the morning. My mom paid like 200 box for the pair.L
Also, my manager told me that I cannot work anymore and I can work until 30th. Shit I dont know how can I pay my high bills after all! Today, I saved some money by eating two small chips. Hopefully, I forgot to take my credit card and that saved me. Ok! I have to save my money and I have to by a new pair contact lensesL
And the worst of all, my economy teacher, whom I had a crush on, will come this afternoon to pick up some stuff from here!!!!! God, after getting a B, I really dont want to face him! I am kinda embarrassed or something like that!!!
Charlies Angle coming up, check out the pics:
Ok! For getting little bit comfortable, listen to Homeyras music:
Bekhand be rooye donya
Donya be root bekhande
Nazar ke ranjo ghose rahe safar bebande
To tanha nisti khoda yarete
Oon mehraboone negahdarete
Dardo dava mikone
Mojezeha mikone
Nakhor ghose azizam bebin cheha mikone
Ta shaghayegh zendast ghodrate eshgho faramoosh nakon
Ta mohabat baghist sholeye omido khamoosh nakon
To tanha nisti khoda yarete
Oon mehraboone negahdarete
Dardo dava mikone
Mojezeha mikone
Nakhor ghose azizam bebin cheha mikone
Age ze ham jodaim
Rafighe ghose haim
Hamin rooza be lotfe ham
Az ghoseha rahaim
barikalah bache zerang,...
kheire saremoon bache zerang shodim!!!! I just spent 5 hrs doing math exercises and after that joking with stupid persians in English class!!! U can not believe it!!! From 25 student of a class 21 of them r persians!!! As usual! Hopefully she may accept Ash in her class. I know she would caz he is a retarded!!!!! He was writing an elementry sample paragraph for almost 45 mins; however, everyone finished it in like 15 mins!!!!! Kiss Ass...
Tomorrow is a usual day and I am going to study math tonight seriously! I badly need an A in my math class and tonight I spent two hrs waxing!!! I know I know that I am crazy,but I don't have enough time during the week and I have to work tomorrow till 10 in the evening. I am ssooooooooooooo glad that I built this site caz it really really improved my Englsih. today, when I wrote the sample one, I found out that I can write sth more interesting!!! I got encouraged and I am soooo happy!!!!
Now, listen to Chicago's song:
You know our love was meant to be the kind of love that lasts forever.
And I need you here with me from tonight until the end of time.
You should know, everywhere I go, you're always on my mind, in my heart, in my soul.
You're the meaning in my life, you're the inspiration.
You bring feeling to my life, you're the inspiration.
Wanna have you near me, I wanna have you hear me saying
no one needs you more than I need you.
And I know, yes I know that it's plain to see, we're so in love when we're together.
And I know that I need you here with me from tonight until the end of time.
You should know, everywhere I go, you're always on my mind, in my heart, in my soul.
You're the meaning in my life, you're the inspiration.
You bring feeling to my life, you're the inspiration.
Wanna have you near me, I wanna have you hear me saying
no one needs you more than I need you.
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The biography above belongs to one of my favorite writers JANE AUSTEN and I bought 2 of her books: Pride and Prejiduce and Emma!!!! But, I think it is boring for some people caz u have to read the book 2,3 times to find out what the hell happened!!! And today was the first day of summer school and samn Fine gave us 300 problems to solve in less than a day!I am just finish it! Started at 3:30 up to 5:30 then working till 8 and then again work on it till 9 then at 9 I went home by bus( JAVATIM DIGE)then till now, I was starting copyimg caz I could not tolarate any more!!! So exhausted!!!!
These are the books if u want:
Ok! I am going now! Enjoy your day and listen to this music as well!
Today I saw somebody who looked just like u
He walked like u do
I thought it was u
As he turned a corner I called on your name
I felt so ashamed
But it was not u
was not uuuuuuuuuuuuu
You r everything everythng is u
How can I forget the face that I see
Brings back memories of being with u
oooo darling I just can not go on when I thinking of u
Comparig each girl with u
oooo when they just won't u
They are not u come on babe
U r everything and everything is u
OOOO u r everything and everything is u
Woman uuuuuuuuuu ahh u r everything ooo u r everything and everything is uu Baby uuuuu
uuuh U r everything everything
U r everything and evrything is u
Who the shit is U!!! Don't know yet, but if u know plz be kind and inform me,...
This site,...
I don't know what the fuck is going on in this damn site!!!! I really get nuts and don't know what to do! I collect lots of pictures of Thursday when we went down to the Six Flags!!!!! We even found a frame for our caricatore yesterday, but I can not put them in my site! I have to scan every single picture and my problem is that all pictures have high resolution and I can not make them smaller!!!!! Ok, I will find a way for it cuz I rally want to put those on my site!!! But, we had soooooo much fun!!!! Yesterday was sooooooo good as well and I am happy that this break was not waste!!!!!Goodness! yesterday was wonderful!:)),;)
I am listening to Modern Talking again ( Damn I love these guys specially Thomas!!!!)
Oh, life is so hard
And you have to choose
The call of the wind
On the highway of fools
Why does a man never cry when he's feeling
You murder all his feelings
Will you still be there
Only love knows why
Between the fire
When white doves cry ?
Why does a man never show what he's meaning
You murder all his feelings
And you cry in the night
When there's no one besides
Your tears
Don't worry baby
I'll be by your side
Don't let it ever get you down with you tonight
Don't worry baby
Where he has gone
My heart is out of my control
I'm falling strong
Don't worry pretty baby
Come and get you down tonight
Come and get
Come and get
Come and get you down
You're all of pride
Don't worry pretty baby
Come and get you down tonight
Come and get
Come and get
Come and get you down
You're all of pride
Heart and pride
I live for love
And you've got to try
Oh, don't let this chance, baby pass you by
Why does a girl never cry when her feelings
Are murdered by bad dealings
It started in heaven
There's a place for you
Give me the chance for a rendez-vous
Why does a girl never shows what she's meaning
You murder all her feelings
And you cry in the night
When there's no one beside
Your tears
Shopping,...
I went masalan SHOPPING today. It took 8 hrs and none of us get the Fucking dress!!!! We went anywhere u can imagine and,...
Down Town, West Wood,... any where, but we could not find the suitable ones! Mostly caz we had my naggy grandma with us!!!!! U know when people get old they get kinda noisy!:)) I love my granny, however, I can not tolarate her sometimes and u know that my mouth is always open and I cannot shut up!!!!:))
Anyway, it was just waste of time; however, after that me and Melo went to Subway near SMC and shared tuna sandwich. After that we went home caz poor girl was so tired!
KHIAL NAKON NABAsHI
BEDOONE TO MIMIRAM
GOFTE BOODAM ASHEGHAM
HARFAMO PAS MIGIRAM
KHIAL NAKON NAMOONI
KArAM DIGE TAMOOME
LEYLI FAGHAT TOO GHESAST
JONOON DIGE KODOOME
KI MIGE TO NABASHI
SETARE BI FOROGHE
AROOSAKA BEDOONID
KE ASHEGHI DOOROOGHE
TO BARDEI MIKHASTI
KE HARFETO BEKHOONE
BE PAYE TO BESOOZE
BARAYE TO BEMOONE
AROOSAKI MIKHASTI
ROO TAGHCHATOON BEZARISH
VAGHTI BAZI TAMOOM SHOD
TOOYE OTAGH BEZARISH
U know what? I am getting lazy writing this page lately!!!
But, I promise,...
Fucking weather,...
I hate when I have a cold specially when we have a nice day here in L.A and I hate staying at home, so I went out. And, u guys really missed it caz I really enjoyed everything. I went to Cinema and watching 3 movies:
!. Bruce Almighty
2. Hollywood
3. Dump and Dumberer
U guys, I encourage u to see these movies, however, I just went to see Down With Love, but I thought, I am down and should go up!!!!:)
Sorry u guys! I know that I am getting crazy caz I have a fever!!!!!!!
But, I realy enjoy the movies and after that I went near the ocean, and enjoy the sunset!
A Favorite day and God knows what happens tomorrow,...
Iiiiii am coming up, so u better get this body started,
I did not want to write twice a day, but I dont have anything to do right now, and actually ( we r u friends mage na?) I kinda fell in love with sb. J yeah, but the guy is my web site!!! I love writing; however, I am finding lots of mistakes whenever I read my previous ones! Khodemoonim ha ! I was so depressed! ( BAR PEDARO MADARE HARCHI.. LANAT) But, I am sooooooo excited right now, I wanna travel and be independent for the first time in my life! God , plz plz I am in the situation! Let me go! And the good news is that Today is the last day I am working for this semester!!! YES ! u hear right!
GHALBE TO GHALBE PARANDEH
POOSTET AMA POOSTE SHIR
ZENDOONE TANO RAHA KON EY PARANDE PAR BEGIR
ZIRE OON JANGALE TAN SABZ
POSHTE DASHTE SAR BE DAMAN
OONVARE ROZAYE TARIK
POOSHTE OON SHABAYE ROSHAN
BARAYE BAVARE BOODAN
KASI BAYAD BASHE BAYAD
BARAYE LAMSE TANE ESHGH
KASI BAYAD BASHE SHAYAD
KE SARE KHASTEGIAMO BEROYE SINE BEGIRE
BARAYE DELVAPASIHAM VASE SADEGIM BEMIRE
GHALBE TO GHALBE PARANDE
POOSTET AMA POOSTE SHIR
ZENDOONE TANO RAHA KON
EY PARANDE PAR BEGIR
And Namarde harki nare,
Welcome back? Or ,
Long time no see dear friend!!!! Hey! I am at work right now and Leroy is not here! Unfortunetly, I can not work with computer specialy this web when I am at work, so I decide to write in Ms.Word and then transfer it to my site! Come on dear! I dont want to cheat it is just caz I can not stay in my web for at least 2 minutes!!!
Ok! I was absent! U r right! It was really really busy! I had to do some f..ing projects and some stuff which took most of my valuable time!!J) Right now, I am so happy! Seriously! I know that the end of the story was not that good, however, I am tired of GHOSE KHORDAN!! I want to go sw and swear if anyone does not come with me, I will go by myself! I am getting crazy u know, but plz be fair! After almost 4 yrs spending fing life in Los AngelesJ) I just went to Vegas! And thats because I am JAVAD!!! Today, I got lots of compliments! After, Soheil told me that all I wrote after almost 15 hrs were just BUL SHIT and I know that poor guy did all the project, but I dont care caz he was the lazy one!!!!! Ok hon! Tell me ZOOD, TOND, SARI where do u wanna go? Guy involved or not? YUCK!!! No guy involved I prefer to go by myself or a girl caz I am tired of guys, Dont panic sugar! Nononono I dont want to complain and I am not sad! Just happy and I really want to spend my vacation traveling! I had an appointment for Army, but I could not go caz I had this fing project to do! I feel dizzy, I wanna go home and sleep, but I have to wait at least 2 hrs till I go home!
Have u listen to Shadmehrs song JINA? Ok
I will put it as a background for sure, but right now I am going to write the lyric: oops ! I dont know it clearly, instead one from MODERN TALKING OK?
They said : Oh yeah, it's a tough world
You're restless and you're young
I said : Oh girl, it's a good twirl
And your time will come, your time will come
They said : you came from the wrong side
He's a page from the end of the book
I said : You came from the right side
Took me just one look
Then you understood
With a little love
You will survive
With a little love
You will get by
Do what you want
Go your own way
'Cause its your life
With a little love
You'll make a start
Yeah, why lovers break each other's heart
Do what you want
Go your own way
'Cause it's your life
They said : no future forget it
You came from the wrong side of town
I said : don't listen, don't let it
Let it bring you down
Make you wear a frown
They said : Oh let him down easy
Laugh at the heart you have won
I said : that life is for living
Like the morning sun
It had just began
Ok! I am going to shut up dude,
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Noting much,
Today was so boring! Waking up at 7 as usual! I wish I could sleep a little bit more!!!! Goodness! Tomorrow I have the Fking written test and I am happy caz u know what? I HAVE ALL THREE DIFFERENT TESTS!!!! Dont be happy! I failed three times thats why I have all resultsJ) So, I wont have any problem! Caz I am sure this time that I will PASS (honar kardi)J) Ok, Sohail and Tyler were in Cayton center today, and I became embarrassed caz my econ sus Not even my Econ, but my English. And, my stomach is getting bigger everyday! Dont be scared! I am not pregnant, but I just start eating more and more each day!!! And it is awful! Caz I know that apart from getting fat, I have lots of injuries. My knees and heart killing me! I get sick much more than before and I am tired of work out! Hell I dont know what to do! I wish there was sb beside me who planning my meals. Today, my soup was so sour that I could not eat it. After I made it, I just through the whole bowl in the garbage can caz it was not eatable at all!! UUUUUKKK!!! When I think about the caz of it I remember that my corn soup was out of fridge for two weeks and its door was open!!!! My mom killed me!!
But, I am a Moran caz I eat a complete meal including two pieces of fried fish, a whole bowl of rise, and some meat, and when I got the school I ordered a huge meal including my favorites: fried rice with carrot and beans, cho mien, and fried Tofu ,and I ate like a pig!!! Shame on me!
And tomorrow, I have things to do , but I have to study Econ as soon as I can.
I must get an A,
What the hell?:)),...
Now, the time is coming and shit!!! Just an hour to hell!!!!:))
Nevermind, I am just nervous and I wish I had not have to present this f...ing project! Hey Soheil dear, please forgive me and JORE MARO HAM BEKESH caz I no nothing about this project. Now, I am happy that Tyler is with us caz u know he can hide my stupid Persian accent! Shame on me! After almost 4 yrs living here, I am still HAMOON POKHI KE BOODAM!!:)) Now, it is 1:30.
The good news is that I should just present 2 pages!:))
The rest is for Soheil and Tyler! Poor guys!!!
Just hope to not make people laugh at us,...
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My big fat project,...
:)) Oh my God, right now it is almost 10 hours since Soheil and Me starting this project. I don't why he is so greedy!!! Man! enough!till not we have made 13 ones and he keeps telling me KAFI NIST!!!!!
And I am so exhausted caz I did not sleep well last night and DAMN I have to go to work in an hour!!!!
:))
I am thinking how funny we will look tomorrow:))
Stupid:)),...
Imagine,...
Imagine that u r sitting among these flowers!!! How delightful it is to be among these beautiful nature!!Look at the house, trees, and the sky!!!! Just wonderful, amazing! I wish I was there, looking at the sky, praying to live there forever!!!!!
Anyway, I change everything! The background music, the pictures above my writings, and the most important I CHANGED ME!!!! Changed myself! Trying to be cool and optimist! And now live is more beautiful without of course a MAN involved!!:))
I feel the freedom, the joy, and happiness! Life is much easier than it was before! I have plans for ME! I wanna study hard. So hard to get what I want, and I decided to travel to somewhere far from here for change! Actualy, I hope to go to somewhere like SanDiego, San Fransisco, San Jose, or just anywhere! I don't give a shit to (SB's) anymore! I'm gonna ask people to come with me to that journey and if they don't does not matter! KHODAM MAGAR CHE KARE HASTAM????:))
ok, regardless this awesome picture, wanna write a peom from two favorite singers ALIREZA ASAR vs SHADMEHR AGHILI:
ZEMDEGI BAGHI BOZORGE PORE AZ GOLAYE TAZE
HARKASI YE BAGHCHE AZ ESHGH BARAYE DELESH MISAZE
DELE MEHRABOONE AHOO CHESHMARO TOO KHAB MIBINE
GHANARI RO KHAKE GOLDOON BE OMIDE GOL MISHINE
NIGA KON ROO TANE SAGHE TAVALE YE ZAKHME KARI
CHE KASI BA NOKE KHANJAR KHAT NEVESHTE YADEGARI
BA HOJOOME TIGHE SHOLE ASEMOON RANGESHO BAKHTE
SHEKARABE DOODO BARON BE MAZAGHE GOL NASAKHTE!
And, Nothing is more beautiful than a wind,...
Hi
I just want to completley change both this site and myself :) Be confident and optimist! I even change all my musics to better ones! No more Hayedeh, Sunset, Ghomeyshi, or Ebi. Welcome Sandy, Shahrokh and others,...
Hey! u....feel better man! :))
Broken wings,...
Am I jealous of couples? No, no I swear the God I always pray for everyone to be happy together! Specially couples! I don't know where the hell this pain again coming from! F... you! Enough please!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
There is a bumb in my head and its noice is killing me!! Please sb help me! Please! Plaese! I am dying of the ugly picture in my head and I don't know how to get ride of that!!! It is almost 2,3, or 4 weeks since I started writing this f...king page and I am still mad and depressed. When I go over my writings I can not smell happiness in there. I know myself. I am not talketive, so sth is wrong with me that encourages me to write and write and write!!!!!
Oh, God, Please stop the pain! I have pain all over my body from head down to my toe! And I failed my driving test!!!! How foolish I am!!! Stupid stupid!I just want to cry...
I just hate myself and I want to die. Everyday I wake up, I wish I was dead.
Lots of bells playing crazy things in my head! How to get ride of them? I ... I wish I could die easier not painful as it now! I have a great pain in my heart and my knees most of the time and I am waiting for a heart attack to take me somewhere else!
BORDI AZ YADAM
DADI BAR BADAM
BA YADAT SHADAM
DEL BE TO DADAM
BAR DAM OFTADAM
DEL BE TO DADAM
FETADAM BE BAND
EY DEL BAR ASHKE KHOONINAM BEKHAND
SOOZAM AZ SOOZE NEGAHAT HANUZ
CHASHME MAN BASHAD BE RAHAT HANUZ
CHE SHOD AN HAME PEYMAN
KE AZ AN lABE KHANDAN
BESHANIDAMo HARGEZ
KhABARI NAShOd AZ AN
KEY AAI BE BARAM
EY SHAAME SAHARAM
DAR BAZMAM NAFASI
BENSHIN TAJE SArAM
TA AZ JAN GOZARAM
PARE SARAM NE
JAN BE TANAM DE
CHO BE SAR AMAD
OMRE BI SAMARAM
NESHASTE BAR DEL GHOBARE GHAM
ZANKE MAN DAR KHIALE GHAM
GASHTEAM GHAM GOSARE GHAM
OMIDE AHLE VAFA TOI
RAFTE RAHE KHATA TOI
AAFATE JANE MA TOI
BORDI AZ YADAM
DADI BAR BADAM
BA YADAT SHADAM
DEL BE TO DADAM
DAR DAM OFTADAM
AZ GHAM AZADAM
DEL BE TO DADAM
FETADAM BE BAND
EY GOL BAR ASHKE KHOONINAM BEKHAND
SOOZAM AZ SOOZE NEGAHAT HANUZ
CHASHME MAN BASHAD BE RAHAT HANUZ
It is not for someone special. Just a sooze del,...
Sunrise,...
Look at this pic! It is a sunrise not a sunset!!! Is n't it mysterious???
Yesterday, I wrote alot, but a damn computer get blocked and everything were gone:(( I hate when that happen ( which always happen at work), so I decide tonot write whenever I am at work!!!! Yesterday I had soooooooo much fun with my friend and I want to thank her for taking me out caz I feel much better today!!!! And I think it is time to say:
KHORDAM GHASAM TA BAD AZ IN BA CHASHME BAZ ASHEGH SHAVAM,...
When I was downloading Hayedeh's CD, I was shocked!!!! There was a song (THAT SB) told me an story about it!!!
Just read it and imagine my reaction:
VAGHTI ASHEGH SHABE RAZE DELETO GOFTE NATOONI
CHEGHADE SAKHTE KHODAYA
ROOZE NOOROOZ BECHINI GOLE SORKH
BAR SARE RAHE NEGAR FARSH KONI
DELBARET BIAD BEPORSE KARE KIST
TO BARASH GOFTE NATOONI CHEGHADE SAKLHTE KHODAYA
DELBARET KHANDE KONE BA DIGARAN
TO BESOOZIO BARASH GERYE KONI
DELBARET BIAD BEPORSE KE CHERA
TO BARASh GOFTE NATOONI CHEGHADE SAKHTE KHODAYA
DELBARET SAFAR KONE TANHA SHAVI
MESE MAHIA AZ AB JODA SHAVI
BETAPI MAJNOON SHAVI TABAH SHAVI
TO BE KAS GOFTE NATOONI CHEGHADE SAKHTE KHODAYA
VAGHTI ASHEGH SHABE RAZE DELETO GOFTE NATOONI
CHEGHADE SAKHTE KHODAYA CHEGHADE SAKHTE KHODAYA
TO BE KAS GOFTE NATOONI CHEGHADE KHODAYA
CHEGHADE SAKHTE KHODAYA
CHEGHADE SAKHTE KHODAYA
And I just delete the song,...
Sunset,...
Today, my stomach hearts!!!! I don't know what the hell is going on!!!! But, I just wish that day comes!!! Caz I can not talerate this ONE!!! Shit! I am sorry for myself. Why did I do that???!!!! I don't know. I just hope that I am not.... Anyway, maybe it is just beacuse I am worried. God, I don't know what to do. Wish I had sb near me. The one who can help me caz I am unable to think and sooooooooooooooooo confused. I can just pray that nothing will happen!!
I really promise that if I survive this time, I won't do that again until,...
2 hourse later,...
Now, sitting behind a computer in school is stupid caz I have lots of things to do!!!!I don't know why I am tired of everything!!!! Is there anyone tell me what the hell I should do? I feel bad. Soooo bad! I am thinking of something else! I want to start smoking!!! I know that is strange, but right now I need sth to keep me go on and forget everything!
I wonder when this fucking headache will disappear! I am desperetly seeking anything,...
Hayedeh mige:
KHODAM TANHA TANHA DELAM
right now listening to Siavash's GHAHRO ASHTI is crazy!!!
ZENDEGI BE IN GHASHANGI
ASEMOON BE IN YE RANGI
TO MIKHAY BA MAN BEJANI
JANG CHICHIYE O CHE JANGI
You know this song has always made me sad. Right now, I listen to this kinda songs.
And I changed,...
Cloudy days,...
Wish noboday read these stupid stuff!! Caz I hate them as much as myself. I want to stop myself writing whatever comes, but somehow I can not. This page becomes one of my best friends and it does not say anything. Just listening to me!! Thanksbody!!!:))
I was listening to Hayedeh today, and I don't know why (that stupid person) does not like her!!!!! God bless her. This woman's songs are written for me I guess!!!! I sometimes wonder if she is still alive or not!!! Of course she is. At least in my heart!
Now this song is just perfect for my situ,...
DELAM GOM SHODE PEYDASH MIKONAM MAN
AGE ASHEGHETE VAY BE HALESH
ROSVASH MIKONAM MAN
YE ROOZ KHEYME ZADI TOO SARNEVESHTAM
MANAM AZ ASHEGHIM VASAT NEVESHTAM
GAMOON KARDI HANUZ POR SHARO SHOOORAM
HANUZ ASHEGHAMO KHEILY SABOORAM?
SHABA HAMASH BE MEYKHOONE MIRAM MAN
SORAGHE MEYO PEYMOONE MIRAM MAN
TOO IN MEYKHOONEHA KHASTEYE DARDAM
BE DONBALE DeLE KHODAM MIGARDAM
(TO KE GHADRE VAFA RO NADOONESTI
MISHOD YE RANG BEMOONI NATOONESTI)
GAMOON NAKON TOO DASTAT YE ASIRAM
DIGE GHALBAMO AZ TO PAS MIGIRAM
SHABA HAMASH BE MEYKHOONE MIRAM MAN
SORAGHE MEYO PEYMOONE MIRAM MAN
TOO IN MEYKHOONEHA KHASTEYE DARDAM
BE DONBALE DELE KHODAM MIGARDAM
DELAM GOM SHODE PEYDASH MIKONAM MAN
AGE ASHEGHETE VAY BE HALESH ROSVASH MIKONAM MAN
But, seriously I shoulda find this mysterious person who (DOES ME A FAVORE) and play me music for me caz curiosity will kill me eventually.
Oooooooh, I find two new friends:)) Both are teacher and psychologist!!!! How is that?
Step by step, I gonna ask them to help me
But, if God wants,...
Tempting,...
Today is one of the bad days. Shit!! I am deprest again. I need someone to helpe me saying NO to myself. I am tempted to do sth very very stupid,... I broke my habits. I broke my heart to comfort myself, but nothing woks,... My heart is in pieces. Bleeding to death, but damn it,... I don't know what the hell is wrong with me!! Why am I seeking that f... person. Am I in love? or is it the stupidity of my soft heart? What should I do? Please!!!! I beg you!!! Don't come near!! Don't bother! My heart is hurting so bad! And you know what? You were the one who broke it, and somehow I want to squeeze you neck till you die,... What was my mistake? I swear the God I was faitful. And you know what? MORAN is the best word that suits me! Now, after many days, my heart still aching. I think it is getting sick. Both from YOU and ME. getting sick of your,...
Thanks for making me unhappy, crazy, and ill. Thanks for replacing my heart with stone as yourself. You wanted to cold it. Remember? Now you did it. Congradulations,...
So, go and let me die in my pains,...
I did not want to come here today!!! But, I had to caz I recieved sth that I should show my BEST BEST friend Mona (:*) which is :
Just... wanted to say I love you caz you are the one I always trust and you are the only one that has a big heart!!
God bless you and I LOVE YOU
My Friend !
Remember to always say what you mean.
If you love someone, tell them.
Don't hide, Don't be afraid
Reach out and show them
that, you really care.
'cause when you decide that,
it is the right time,
it might be too late.
And the regrets you have,
may never be fade.
In the past......
Maybe you didn't listen,
or maybe I didn't say.
So here I'm; to tell,
I LOVE YOU! my friend.
Dreams,...
When I looked at my previous diary, I found lots of gramer mistakes!!!:)) I wanted to correct them, but then I thought it would be better for me to look at my mistakes and learn of them. Like a week ago,...
Anyway, I want to thank my best friend Mona who was with me when I was in a bad situation. Sorry if I take most of your time,...
Love,...
At least for one reason I am happy that I have taken this Fashion class, and that is my appritiation and love for Art. I swear when I got there, I started crying suddenly. I tought how stupid I am caz I did not choose an Art major. Yesterday ws one of the best days of my life. The museum and paintings were not that valuable and great than I usually love, but mixing, and melting with colors (which is the greatest love of my life) made my day one of the best. For a day, I forgot sadness and tension. You know, I had an special feeling. Something between joy and pain. And I miss my dearest friend soooo much that after almost 4 years apart, I still think of her every day. I can remember the last day we spent. She was really crying, but I pretend!!!! As soon as the plane started seeking up, the pain shattered my heart. We had fun!!! And she was increddible. The kindest and generous person I have ever met. I am happy for her husband and her future ( to bechildren )who can have this angle beside them!!!!!
And here is Art and,...
Whatever comes,...
Whenever I want to choose a picture for my diary page, I am wondering why do I always choose ocean?
The answer is the magnificence of the ocean which calms me!
I have no idea.The important thing is that actually I sometimes love building this web site. I feel useful and happy whenever I open pages and add some more and more pictures and informations. I know that there are not many people seeing my web site. By the way, WHO CARES???
I made it for ME,myself, and I attempt write in English caz I want to improve this stupid language and be less ashamed among cold hearted Americans. And you know that we are strangers, don't you?
Again another day...
I decided to not update my site every single day. The reason is beacuse I want to collect lots of informations. And you know that it is getting boring specially this particular page.
I am happy today caz I am gaining more and more confidence each day. Caz I believe myself. Caz I have to live for lovely friends around me. Caz I am not that useless!!! I can be the one who is turning lights on. I can forbid myself of stupid mistakes. Now, I know the value of love, friendship, and happiness. I just tried and hope God helps me as always...
The day after I died
Have you ever listen to the song " I just died in your arms tonight"?
If not, go ahead and listen to it caz it is soooooooooo beautifhul. I don't say that caz I'm a Chicago fan (that I am) I just recommand it caz it is goergious.
And, I died, but not in your arms...
Today...
Today is alittle bit brighter!alittle bit happier than before. My heart is less frozen than yesterday THANKS GOD!
A new day starts. A new life begans and I can fight stupid feelings. I am believe that I can. I just lost my strenght and I want it back. I can get it back. I just should try. A little bit harder. I know that happier future is waiting for me. Just waiting me to catch it, touch it, and live with it. My dear friend is waiting for me. The one that is kind-hearted, caring, and nice. She is not an stranger. She knows me like herself. She is much more stronger and she knows that deep in my heart there is love and sympathy for her. She is no one except me!!!
AND SHE IS THE ONLY ONE THAT CAN HELP ME!
